June 22, 1980

Mother,

I have caused you much heartache and strife over my gambling and thoughtless handling of money and I am very sorry that you are hurting because of me. I have been a severe psychological burdern to you & myself.

There is not much that I can say to you at this time as you have already heard it before too many times. I still love you but I have not been able to express so as I should I am sorry! I make the moral pledge to you this day, that I shall no longer wagor on any racing again for the rest of the year. I need help thru prayer not chastisement. I write this from what's left of my heart and not for any purpose that would be otherwise. I love you please do not hate me or abandon me.

Richard